I’m beginning to see the light on my path…


I know I’m almost through week 2, but I want to share a journal entry I had in my personal journal on Day 2. It is not all that eloquent as it was initially just meant for my personal reflection. I feel a bit vulnerable putting this out there for the public to read, but I hope it can inspire someone to not feel alone going against the tide of your normal or the normal surrounding you. So here it is…

Emotionally today I feel spent. And I’m not gonna lie I feel hopeful in the plan, but not my taste buds. I hope and pray that I can find some recipes that are easy and tasty soon. I’m also feeling a little overwhelmed as to how much time I’m in the kitchen and how much time I am reading and learning. I know the learning will come in time, but I just don’t know how I can keep up with the quantity of veggies I need to eat and all the cleaning and chopping. I’m gonna have to come up with a solution to have things more handy. Like one day spent just getting ready with all the stuff and then it will be handy. I might have to do another day mid week too.

I’m also feeling….hmm….what’s the word I’m looking for….like an impostor ..yeah, and…lonely, sad, confused…almost grievous.

Impostor because this new lifestyle I’m trying to adapt myself and family into feels weird. As with any change it is bound to feel weird and uncomfortable. My whole life I’ve felt uncomfortable when I’m in situations that I’m not in control of or don’t look natural at. Makes me fidgety. BUT I don’t want to back down for the sake of my health and my families health.

Lonely, sad, confused…grievous because it’s like I’m turning my back to my past ways as if to say I failed for so many years, and those foods that once were my friend are now my enemy. It honestly feels like I am saying good-bye forever to a good friend {cheese, meat, dairy, sugar, desserts, chips, barbecues, pizza, my favorite restaurants, etc}. How can something that made me feel so good become my enemy in a sense?

It’s a food addiction. {Eureka!} I never knew food could have the same effects as other drugs. I need to chop it off!!! Literally, by chopping those veggies. I feel like the inner demons {strongholds} are getting restless because I’m not fueling them. This week may be rough trying to train taste buds, corner hunger, and deny the demons…and remain constant in the home for my family. Lord I need you!!!

So as you can see I had lots of toiling happening inside me on Day 2. I am so glad I journaled those thoughts because today I am not in the same place, and it’s only been…let’s see 11 days. Seriously!

I’m beginning to see the light on my path…

I’m no longer grieving about the loss of those once beloved foods because with time behind me now I can feel the “better” in my body I was hoping for. I can taste the “yummy” in all these leafy greens and real colors. I’m not kidding you! I use to gag half way through certain salad creations. I literally now chow them down so fast {chew-chew-chew} making all kinds of yummy noises…”mmm”!

I’m beginning to see the light on my path…

As for all the cleaning and chopping of veggies and fruits. Yes I still do chop alot. BUT! But, it is getting better. I have certain recipes that have become familiar thus making prep work faster. I have developed routines throughout my day that keep me focused and on track so I don’t get behind the eight ball. For example, last night at dinner I chopped and washed all my leafy greens for today’s salads too, and made double recipes of my favorite salad dressings. The other day I prepared a huge batch of Black Bean Hummus {oh. my. goodness.} for the week and cleaned and prepped a few veggies.
–just a side note: I don’t like the taste of pre-washed/bagged salads so I chop all my own, and it’s so worth it–

I’m beginning to see the light on my path…

So if you are reading this looking for inspiration, know that you can do it!

Make a decision, find a plan that you are passionate about, make your new lifestyle a priority, read/learn/apply, and tell yourself, “I’m worth it”! And please if you are in that place of needing a lifestyle change, don’t let a year go by and look back and have wishes that you wish you would have. Or give way to excuses that rob you of happiness. That’s such a miserable place. I’ve been there so many years.

I will leave you today with one of my favorite new recipes. It is actually the first thing I made, and thankfully I liked this one 🙂

Cinnamon Fruit Oatmeal
serves 2

1 C water
1/4 tsp. cinnamon or more
1 tsp. vanilla extract
1/2 C old-fashioned rolled oats
1/2 C blueberries
2 medium apples, chopped
2 T walnuts, chopped
1 T ground flax seeds
1/4 C raisins

In a saucepan, combine water with cinnamon. Bring to a boil over high heat. Reduce heat, add rolled oats and blueberries. When the mixture starts to simmer remove from heat and add vanilla. Cover and let sit for 15 minutes.
While that is sitting, chop your apples, and combine the remaining ingredients. Stir it all together. Divide into two small bowls and top with the oatmeal and blueberry mixture.

{voila!} Enjoy!

Recipe from “Eat For Health” by Joel Fuhrman, M.D.



2 thoughts on “I’m beginning to see the light on my path…

    • Aunt Sarah, I only posted today and yesterday. I haven’t necessarily posted each day’s journal. I am hoping to just post here and there as I have time. I’m glad you enjoyed it 🙂

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